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I'm overall depressed.

1. I feel like I'm not living up to my potential as a writer and musician, and that frustrates me, because I know I can do better.

2. I'm pissed at both my brothers. One moved out, now goes to bars every night, gets hammered, and then goes and snorts lots of coke. The other one still lives with us, but comes home to sleep at 4AM, and wakes up after everyone else has left for work and school.

Ugh.

Well, not like any of this matters to you guys, I'm just venting to the complete strangers on the internet.

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Channel that disastisfaction into something worthwhile. Also, have you considered you may not be suited to be a musician? or writer? Explore other options while you have the chance. It took me 19 years to learn I didn't want to be an artist and discover a part of myself I hadn't yet realized was there entirely.

Don't let the actions of others bring you down, either. Sometimes they need to learn hard, hard lessons before they come around. Remove that emotional attachment invested in them and realize that if they don't want your help, they are beyond it and must figure their own lives out.

Keep a stiff upper lip, man. Life can be a pain.

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I'm overall depressed.

1. I feel like I'm not living up to my potential as a writer and musician, and that frustrates me, because I know I can do better.

2. I'm pissed at both my brothers. One moved out, now goes to bars every night, gets hammered, and then goes and snorts lots of coke. The other one still lives with us, but comes home to sleep at 4AM, and wakes up after everyone else has left for work and school.

Ugh.

Well, not like any of this matters to you guys, I'm just venting to the complete strangers on the internet.

Etso, my man, I understand your plight. At least the writing and music parts. For the longest time I wanted to be an author, and write massive amounts of wonderful novels and have a quiet life in some mountain town in the north. But things have a strange way of working out for you. I've got my reasons as to why they didn't work out, but it doesn't mean you have to abandon your hopes for writing. I've recently started up again, and it's going to be a long process for me, but here's something you might be interested in: www.lulu.com It's a self publishing website. Very cool, check it out.

As for your brothers. Try not to be too dissapointed with them. They're doing what they need to do right now. I'm sure WC was pissed with me when I'd go out drinking all the time, come home and sleep past two, and skip classes everyday. But the best thing you can do for him? Talk to him about it. Worst thing? Give him copious amounts of **** about it. Chances are they're going through tough times in the lives right now and need someone to talk to, someone that will listen. And I think that you, with your big heart, fit the bill. Just the simple fact that you're frustrated enough with all of these happenings to send out a message to a bunch of people you barely know is a sign, of sorts, that you're asking for help. Maybe not consciously, but I think you are.

Venting is a great thing. Vent all you want. The worst thing you can do is keep it all in and never let anything out. I'm sure you already know that, but I felt compelled to share it. Keep your head up, keep the words flowing out of your head and the music from your heart. You'll find out what is the next best step sooner or later, and when you do, everything will fall into place.

a-g

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